sereneliow

2010-08-14T08:21:00.000-07:00

Alright. i'm back to posting again! hee

hmm, i having been staying in baby's house

for awhile le. at first, i feel rather uncomfortable la!

haha. but now, i dont feel good if he dont sleep beside me!

hee. love you many!

2010-07-26T08:49:00.000-07:00

Alright! Back to posting again!

hmm, quite alot of things happened recently.

Me and baby seems to have some communications problems.

sigh!

issit bc i dont know how to communicate with him

or issit bc he cant communicate with me?

sigh!

but im kind of gald that we are able to talk things out properly.

well,

i know that partly is all bc of me ba.

mood always swing like nobody's business. sorry baby.

and thank you for your that understanding heart.

as what i told you on the bus that day,

im falling deeper and deeper for you.

right now,

all i know is that,

i really cant afford to lose you anymore.

i want to work things out with you and have a good future tgt.

i know, many times i make you tears,

make you sad and make you feel "not safe"!

sigh! dont tears bc of me anymore.

that really hurt me la.

let me be there to share the happiness we both are having.

let me be there to share the sadness you are facing:)

lastly,

i know we will always be that most loving couple<3

ps: its so uncomfortable without you sleeping beside me!!!

2010-07-06T10:59:00.000-07:00

wow wow wow!!

This week is a "cool" week man!

haha!

firstly, cuz baby book out for quite long.

secondly, alot of planning on from thurs!whee!

look forward la.

Thurs: going to baby house to cook for his mom and him. after that,

heading out for movie:)

friday: going over to mama house for basketball session with sisters

and brothers and staying for dinner.

after dinner, going to amk hub for k-ing with wendy, kristy, huiling and

li hua!

sat: going sentosa with baby in the morning!

after sentosa meeting jack they all for steamboat session!

sun: is either zoo or badminton!!!

not confirm:(

after that at night ard 10plus baby jiu got to book in le!

sian!

haha! but is okay!

enjoy first zai sian! hee!

2010-07-02T07:54:00.000-07:00

Went jb with baby ytd! hmm, yes!

we did enjoyed:)

think backk, the last time i went to jb is like 3months ago during

my birthday!

haha!

hmm, bring baby to dangan bay.

we walk along the beach side. its sweet uhh.

after that we stay one night at kozi hotel! kozi hotel!!?

when i first step in, memories flash thru my mind.

remind me of us?

hmm, i did told baby how i feel as i really dont wish to keep anything

from him.

lucky he can understand.

thank you baby!!

dont worry.

as what i promise you,

you will soon replaced all those memories!!

haha! alright!!

our next trip will be on the step:)

after your ORD!!

whee! look forward to that!

loves!

2010-06-17T04:49:00.000-07:00

Sigh! i guess i really fall in love with him la.

The way he sin makes me melt.

well, at last i know he actually feel as well.

shit him uhh.

act blur to me! idiot!

but he said he need three days to think thru everything.

sigh!!

i guess the chances of us getting tgt is like less den 20%?? suan le.

let natural take its course ba.

yes, alot of ppl might think that im just having a crush on him,

at first i tot it was really a crush but after which,

i somehow realise that that wasnt the case at all lorr.

its love.

there is so much in me that i want to be with him and create more

wonderful

memories.

how i wish i can tell him all this la.

but i seriously dont have the courage to do so plus,

i really dont wish to stress him at all.

well, i can only wait and wait ba.

whether are we able to make it or not,

im not gonna make anymore first move le.

the rest is all up to the ben dan le!!

2010-05-27T10:31:00.001-07:00

Those words you said that day really make me feel so hurt but at the same time, give up. Perhaps, to you, you will only care about her feelings ba. Well, it doesnt matter anymore. really. your wish is granted. life without me is happier. Now, i hope i dont get anymore stuffs that link to anyone who is close to you. really. wo hen lei ye hen xinku. i dont see a need to be sad anymore bc of a person who doesnt care. sigh. i hate to tears, i hate to think of you. so, let me just shut you off for now. And, this is what you want me to do so too=)

2010-05-23T05:29:00.000-07:00

I'm back again!

Well, suddenly realise that i counted the wrong days of us been tgt! its 2years 5months! kao! What a long dragging relationship!! But, its okay uhh! Everything has come to a full stop le=) At first, i cant move on! Cry everyday like one idiot! Even had that stupid tot of staying by you quietly till you really found someone and stable down? But, i changed my mind le. And so, i move on le.

Today went sun tanning! is like finally la!! Finally got sun! Tan dao majiam like one malay! haha! But i love it=) Bought a new volleyball and one new bottle of sun-tan lotion! I want to go sun tan every week! Who is willing to do so with me uhh? haha! I guess, im just so crazy in love with the sun can! *smile*

Alright! heading out for dinner now le! Gonna enjoy my lovely dinner with my lovely.......friend! *opps*! haha!

2010-05-15T23:24:00.000-07:00

It's time to move on=]

Well, histroy repeated itself again! But, this time round, never will i look back. Yes, it might still hurt. But, i know something. I dont love you as much as before already. I hate our memories. Memories will be deleted. Cuz i know you didnt even love me before. One year five months of relationship. I dont know what's all this about. But, this time, i know very clearly le uhh. I really should look at those ppl who really care for me. I dont need your words and fake actions anymore. Lets just be friend ba. Let beyond be beyond. My poor wai po still hoping to see you everytime she sees me. Sigh. I will break the news to her and family members. Cuz i just hate it when they keep mentioning you or asking me about you when they saw me. That rather pissed me off!

2010-05-03T06:00:00.000-07:00

We had lots of fun there. But why are there so many problems to solve when we are back?? I really cant trust your words at all. How should i when you ever lie in the past? The questions you asked is making me thinking otherwise. Dont say i think too much. Cuz i know i didnt. I will wait. Wait for you to explain everything to me. Wo lei le. At d end of the day, the one that choose to leave, the one that choose to give up will still be me. This kind of relationship.....i dont need it. You can just simply give it to her. I seriously cant afford to shed any more tears or think anymore stuffs. Those questions you asked really make me freak out the whole day. It somehow still affected my mood. If she is really that impt, den leave me alone. Beautiful memories are meant to be kept. Ugly memories are meant to be deleted. When its time to move on, i will move on anytime.

2010-04-18T23:00:00.000-07:00

Back to posting le.....keke.. Went out with my ex schoolmate yesterday. Hmm, seems to be abit bored at first! cuz only like got the five of us?? But, okay la. Still rather fun. hee. Went cine to have dinner den by pool. After that, heading to tcc at centre point to slack for awhile=] Its fun to hang out with them onces in awhile. hee.

2010-04-11T12:35:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th birthday to me!!

Wa...time passes dame fast. Another year is over. Well, i had a great time celebrating my birthday with my family members and my close fren=] i hope everyone enjoyed themselves too. Special thanks to "you". Thanks for all the effort for planning, for buying all those stuffs with me and your very special birthday gift. Well, i might be the last year you will be here with me to celebrate with me le but dont worry, there are still someone out there who is more worthy your effort. Let our most beautiful memories be kept inside our heart ba. And keep that special gift from buddy to the both of us well=] Loves!!

2010-03-29T10:07:00.000-07:00

Anyway, im not going to bangkok le. hee. Will be going to some other places...places that doesn't consist our memories. Cuz, i really really dont wish to think of anything at this point of time...sigh...tired le. going to bed now...good night, everyone=]

2010-03-27T12:25:00.000-07:00

I'm hurt like one stupid fcuker. A really big one this time. haha. But this also make me learn. Learn to not do so much and put so much into a relationship. Giving all to someone doesnt mean that someone will give you back something in return. Or perhaps, yes. Scar and tears ba. Sorry to all my friends that are inform about my celebration on the 10th. Might have some changes. Will be update to you ppl later in april. I hope ppl around me will not ask me what's going on. Why is there a sudden change in me. =] Just let me be ba. Let me do what i want to do. I'll be fine after awhile.=]

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2010-03-24T04:36:00.000-07:00

Finally back to post again....welll, same old thing happening around me again. *bored*

*Work*

Working seems to make me getting more and more shag. Jo just came in to niwa and work as well. hmmm, i should say, at least she is there to keep me accompany when im bored bahs. Sigh. bUt im leaving niwa soon.....abit she bu de papa and ppl over there. but no choice....got to go for better job and higher pay....this is life ba.

*Friends*

hmmm, have not seen all friends for rather long time le ba. well, all ppl is busy doing their own stuffs...no time no time=[ i guess, the only day that all of us can meet up is during my 20th birthday celebration ba. hey friends!!! pls be there uh!!!!!! hahaha!!!

*Familys*

Everything seems okay okay la. but only cant stop one thing.... cant stop quarreling with mummy...haiyo...si bei sian lehs. everyday quarrel. sigh.

*Relationship*

Sigh!!! speechless.....i hate myself. hate myself for trusting you. hate myself for doing so much. but i also tell myself this.....its gonna be the last time le. i swear! everything just switch me off when i saw what you ppl did. kao!!!

as for "you" didnt expect you to lie either. sigh. my tears drop when we meet up. you did explain but guess what?? my heart still ached. sigh. at d end of the day, trust no one is still the best out of all those stupid solutions...

*Up coming plans*

bbq celebration for my 20th birthday...hee...look forward to see all my friends=] meet on the 10th. count down to the 11th.

25th of april, heading to bangkok. well, trip cant be confirm cuz there got bomb??? haha. but ticket already buy lor...hope everything goes out well ba...

2010-03-23T09:36:00.000-07:00

Hi there!! Im finally back from posting..... hahahah...

2010-01-08T08:39:00.000-08:00

Back to posting again......

*WENT BACK TO SCHOOL ON THE 7TH OF JAN*

Went back to school with, jo, limin, hock n chee wei yesterday. Wahh!! So many memories went thru my mind onces i stepped into the school. When we first saw mr ow n mr tony, all of us is dame high uh. Haha!! Had a chat inside their office. After that, get mr lim to bring us to canteen to have our fav food!!! Thank you, mr lim! Without you, we cant even stepped out la. *because we wear slippers cum shorts*. =x Now de rules dame sux! Opps!! Saw alot of teachers. Dame happy can. Lastly, thanks to mr pay too!! He drive us to eat the BEST "xing chou mee fen" in tamp. Hmm, i not sure if that's the best la but that's what he told us. Haha. After that still send me home. Dame nice uh. kekex. Find another day to go back to school again. But hor, this time round, Pls be ard uh...... tan xijie!!=p

*MY PERSONAL LIFE RECENTLY*

Sigh sigh sigh!! Freaking emo nowadays. Reguardless of whether i am in jb or spore!! Can i still find back my own happiness??? Can i still laugh happily like how i used to laugh in the past???

有了裂痕的爱要这么从来？？？

很想找回从前那个快了的我，

可是找了很久很久还是找不回来。

爱我的人和我爱的人。

爱我的人爱我爱到很辛苦，

很累。

我爱的人也同样的。。。

让我爱到很辛苦很累。

I need someone out there to teach me what to do. I'm freaking lost. No matter what i say, you will nv believed me. No matter how i treat you, you will still think that i dont treat you well enough.You will nv xin tong wo. Xin tong wo xin tong ni. Never!!! You said,"tong ren bu tong ming". I guess this word should be use on me bahs. Sigh.

She treated me so well so well. Yes. I admit the feelings is there. But, something seems to be missing. Sorry. Everything is just not in the right time=x

2010-01-03T09:07:00.000-08:00

Oh gosh!! My dear sisters is all posting abt laiman's b'dae celebration photos n the re-q things. Hahaha!! Suddenly find them all very cute and i guess everybody really did enjoyed themselves that night ya. Hahaha. And so am i=]. So, in order not to repeat posting the same stuffs, i dont post photos n say abt the re-q stuffs. hahaha!! But hor, one stupid asshole UNCLE touch me that day!! And he still can act dao majiam nothing like that! Stupid asshole uncle. Er xin!! Dont let me see you in club again! If not, im gonna really go crazy n kill you!!!!!

ps: When are we gonna meet up for the next clubbing session??? Coming wed??? Hahahaha=x

2010-01-01T21:39:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!

Spent my last day of year 2009 with, buddy, ah gal n bee. Everything was fine at first then after that bee n me start quarreling again. Sigh!! Quarreling dao ard 2plus??? After that i give up. I admit i lose le. Cry like fuck. I really cannot understand why everything i do oso nonsense. Do ask me why i dont want to tell you everything. Cuz i know no matter what i say, you will nv trust me. So, i rather choose to keep quiet. Well, after quarreling, dont apologised. Sigh. We went back home le, went to aljunied crest to eat supper. Then zai head back home le. After all, i still enjoy my new year countdown. How i wish all my wishes will come true in a new year!!

PS: I hope you are not putting an act infront of me yesterday.

2009-12-29T10:30:00.000-08:00

Oh well, going down to st james tml to celebrating kwok limin's b'dae. haha!! She beg me till so jialat. Ps: talking to ben dan on the phone right now!! *yawns*!! kekex!!

ANYWAY, i know sth le, she is not as simple as what we think she is. Wtf!! Everything i do is for my own goood??? Your thinking is always like that!! I dont want to change it anymore!!

2009-12-27T18:29:00.000-08:00

Celebrated my christmas in jb this year. Stayed one night over there. Next day went home, sunday go in again. Hmm, sunday we bought my younger brother n youngest sister in to "wet world". Had alot of fun i guess. But bring to small kids is rather mafan uh. haha. didn't manged to bring them to other places due to the timing, lucky still got bus home uh. if not jiu got to stay there for one more night le. Reach home at ard 1?? We are all tired like hell man. Haha. Ummm, i supposed we both gain a good experi. Thinking of where to go nxt!! Ps: No more going to wet world!! The bathing toilet really.........cui!! *shake head*!!

Thank you for all the time given by you.

Dont forget my christmas present uh!! haha!!

2009-12-26T08:25:00.000-08:00

Say i no guts, say im a coward. But sorry to say i just want to run away from all the problems right now. I hate to come back to spore. I even hate to on my phone right now. Why do i have to face so many things myself??? Can someone really be there??? Not to force me to do things i hate to do but just be there to listen to my problems??? I dont want to hide anything but dont know who to turn to. Can i just leave spore n run away from all the problems??? Pls stop forcing me to do stuffs i hate to do le. Please!! Run away is not the best solution but i just dont want to slove it. Just want to leave it there to rot.

2009-12-23T08:51:00.000-08:00

Hmm, so many things happened recently. Dont know how should i put it. But just feel rather tired in handling all thiis stuffs bahs. Well, x'mas coming. Hope everything goes well. No emo included!!!!

2009-12-18T20:09:00.000-08:00

People is always so selfish. They always wanted the best thing for themselves. And let the others suffer! Well, cant blame them, cuz they cant help it either. But, i believe not all are selfish bahs=]

2009-12-17T10:12:00.000-08:00

Sigh!! Did i make really make up my mind for everything?? I dont want you to tears bc of me anymore. It just hurt me so badly. You can say lots of things but behind my back you are crying. So, what's on ur mind?? Sigh! How i wish im able to read it. But, too bad. You will nv allow me to do so. Never Never!!

2009-12-16T00:55:00.000-08:00

Make up my mind already. Letting you go. Wish me good luck. Someone out there is waiting for me. All this while, im just bullshitting to you. Happy to hear that?? I guess so. Wo men jiu zhe yang bahs.

PS: fUCk

all the liars n bitch off my life from today onwards!

2009-12-14T08:05:00.000-08:00

What's wrong with me nowadays uh?? Sigh!! Umm, i admit i cried yesterday. Cry till like dont know like what like that. *stupid*!! Hmm, main thing is this few days dont know what happened but i keep having high fever n serious cough at night. Sigh!! Yesterday, didn't sleep for the whole night, morning eyes jiu majiam "xiong miao" like that. haha. Hmm, today went to work, "wear mask" again. Sigh!! Hen xinku. But, no choice. This is life bahs=x

2009-12-13T07:50:00.000-08:00

Shouldn't trust anyone in the first place. Shouldn't fall for a preson who you know will make you sad. I'm speechless already. Neither do i left with other choices. Let the way be like this bahs. You want it this way. I'll do it this way. Wo zhen de hen xinku le. Ni bu zhi dao. Zi hui zai hu ta de gan shou. Yi dian ye bu gong ping. When you are in trouble, im there running here n there with you early in the morning. Scared you are too xinku when you are sick, try my best to take all the sickness from you but end up??? Nothing back. Not even a chance to be there. Nevermind......

2009-12-12T20:48:00.000-08:00

Serene 累了，放弃了。心好难受！一定是我不够好所以你才会想要逃！

我明白了。现在，子要你开心，

我难不难过，心不心苦都不重要！！

子要你幸福就好。请不要故以躲开不让我知道。我会每天默默的祈祷，

祈祷让你幸福。和把我身边所有的幸福都给你。

我不在须要它们了。记得，

你以定要比我幸福。

2009-12-12T07:27:00.000-08:00

Yo yo yo!! Went back to tiong after work today. Yawns!! Abit tired. Dont feel like going anywhere. Sian. But kana force by buddy!! Sigh!! Went to diao diao just now. Catch dao one big yoshi n one care bear! Thanks to the service crew uh. Spent ard 20 plus bucks bahs. No mood. Just feel like spending money. Went to mac to get ice cream cone. Stupid ass. Fell down sprain dao ankle. Sigh! Feel like shutting everybody off for awhile. Physically n emotional tired!!!=x Sigh!! No life no life!!

2009-12-11T04:32:00.000-08:00

Happy bdae to all the dec babys!! Haha!

8dec, HUILING

9dec, LI HUA

10dec, JOELYN

13dec, EMILIA, MUMMY

28dec, KIM HOCK

31dec, LIMIN

Finally went to spore flyer on the 9th of dec. Hee!! Hmm, Took photos. Thanks baby. I enjoy myself. Today, you went to thailand le. Must enjoy urself there=] Make up my mind to tell you everything when you are back. No matter what ur reaction will be, i will still do it. I guess, i will NOT miss you bahs. haha!

2009-12-08T09:14:00.000-08:00

This week, is a dame freaking busy week for me. But, at the same time, feeling very alone. Ummm!! Anyway, Forget to thank baby for making the Egg breakfsat for me early in the sat morning. Haha!! Although all is abt egg but still taste nice=] *Thank you baby*!! Tml going out to celebrate ah gal's bdae. haha!! Going for flyer!! Whee!! Happy happy!! Thurs jo bdae. going sown to bq! After bq, going down to tanjong pagar for second round=]. Sat, emilia bdae, going down to k box. Drink again!! And, last but not least, Sunday is mummy's bdae=] Whee!! I hoppe this week wont be a very boring week for me bahs=]

2009-12-07T18:18:00.000-08:00

Say i dont love you anymore, say i dont treasure the time spent with you anymore, say i dont care abt you anymore, i can say alot of things that is hurting myself and you but whether issit true or not, you will nv know. I guess, im just trying to run away from all this bahs. Dont feel like facing all this facts! Telling myself that i dont love you anymore might makes me feel better inside. Well, i guess, im the only one who need to know the answer myself. I'm sorry baby! But I just love the way you pampered me like a small baby!! hees=x

2009-12-05T10:03:00.000-08:00

Whee whee!! When i came back from mustafa, went to check 4d number cuz i today nothing better to do go buy 4d play play. haha. Guess what?? I won!!!! Omg!! First time sia. Dame happy uh. Dont ask me how much issit. Its only very little. *20 bucks*!! But, its still very happy lohhs. hahahahaha=]

2009-12-04T01:51:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went to hospital to keep ben dan accomany cuz her mom was send to the hospital due to some reasons. Sigh. When i saw her mom, i just cant stop thinking how friendly she is to me when she first spoken to me on the phone n see me in her house. I hope she can get well soon. Silly ben dan!! You got to stand strong ya. I know its rather hard for you but pls pls dont give up. Sigh. Pls oso take good care of yourself. *loves*!!

2009-12-02T01:24:00.000-08:00

After so many things that has happened, i hope the both of us can drift apart. Its so tiring. Went back to niwa sushi to work le. *HAPPY*! But abit tired. hehe. Next week alot of plans on. Sigh. Got to spent alot of money again le=[ haha. But, nevermind la. Still looking forward to everythinng. keke!!

Ben dan say she miss me?? haha. Confirm is fake want lohhs. Humph!!!=x

2009-11-28T18:20:00.000-08:00

Went to meet up with david for awhile ytd. Then after that head down to tamp to meet up with limin. haha. long time no see her uh. hmm, still the same. nv change at all. still will be very "ji tong" when talking. Well, we had a chat till i suddenly realise that we can get derrick n hock to meet up tgt too. sO, we call and ask them out. Wahhs, they steady la. Tot topic will be very little for the 4 of us but well, im wrong. chat till very happy uh. keke. But something just happened to spoil my mood. Shit! happy moments always passed dame fast. hope to catch up with you pp sooooon uh. *loves loves*!! btw hor, si limin say want to take photo oso nv take. kuku la. after that, went to meet up with ben dan.!!! She was rather sick bahs. hai dao her friend oso worry for her. kuku. always dont want to take care of herself. humph!! well, i guess we both enjoyed the night spent tgt bahs=]

2009-11-26T20:05:00.000-08:00

Finally got what i wanted for long yesterday at it fair. A mini laptop!! *Thank you*. Since i promised you that i will work hard in future den i will do it. After buying the laptop, i felt happy at first but after that, i realized that actually i'm not as happy as i tot i will be. Sigh! But no worries, i will work hard, return the money to you and learn to grow up. How i wish i can stay happy like how i used to be in the past. But, i guess its rather hard bahs=(

2009-11-25T22:02:00.000-08:00

"I enjoy your laughter. I want to hear you laugh and not cry. I want you to be happy and not xin ku. I dont want you to give up on yourself. I enjoy going out with your friends and you. Going mama's house and your house with you."

You said all this to me and wants me to bear all this words in mind. Sigh! Issit really true that you wanted me to be happy? But, why are you doing stuffs that make me sad n tears everytime? Why do i have the feelings that i'm always her "ying zi"? Yes, you said i'm not. But i dont think so. You beg me not to hurt myself anymore. You cried but i dont feel that your heart is aching. No matter what happened i know that she will be there for me. Why i can feel that her heart is aching but not yours? Sigh!

2009-11-23T19:58:00.000-08:00

Haha! What a joke! I'm moving back home already! Finally everything is over! *Tired*! And thanks, thanks for all ur promises. Bullshit! Because of her, you broke ur promises! What the fuck! But nevermind. Well, im used to all this shit coming from your side. I beliveve, i will have a new life, new ppl coming into my life. And of course i will be a happier person. Now that everything is back to square one again. I should be glad that after one big round, i'm stilll having yiqian by my side. Thanks baby! PS: dont be too happy when you see all this ya! I hate ur "hao lian" look*! hahaha

*FUCK ALL THE BITCH OFF FROM MY LIFE*

2009-11-02T00:45:00.000-08:00

Went in to jb again yesterday. hee. No place to go already la. We have been to jb so many times. Yesterday is the only day we took pictures can...kekex! But only went in to eat n watch "phobia2"!!! Dame scary show. Tsk. Almost die inside the cinema. Well, i still "enjoy" the show. Enjoy hiding inside my jacket. hahaha=x

2009-10-31T07:05:00.000-07:00

You asked me something which make me think alot today......Do i still love you or issit bc of "xi guan"?? My answer is, dont know. I dont wish to think so much anymore. Zhen de hen lei...Just let nature take its course bahs=] Just go on with our plan and enjoy ourselves. Towards her, i'm not sure of the feeling either. Sigh!!

2009-10-28T10:34:00.000-07:00

Just went thru friends blog. Umm, all of them seems to be so xing fu uh. Haa. Good for them uh. Envy them uh. haha. Nevermind. I got to enjoy myself next weekend also. Hee. Going over to stay one night in KL or JB. First time staying overnight with you in overseas. Better make sure nothing changes......!!!

*LOOK FORWARD*!!! =X

Just make arrangements to meet up with buddy and ah girl next friday for supper after their work at town!! hahaha. =]

I just promised *YOU* that i will settled hao my things then will i really get back to you. So, meanwhile, i hope you can dont think too much. Stay happy=]

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2009-10-26T10:29:00.000-07:00

Lots of things starts to happened again. Sigh!! The love you have for me shaken. Knew something like this will happen sooner or later. How strong is your love for me when you said i love you?? How determined are you when you said you want to have time to settled things with her and let her go?? How can you expect me to trust your words?? Everything is back to square one again. But, this time round, I'm not as hurt as the first time anymore. Learn to be strong.

*She* left spore last night. I tried to stop. But fail to do so. What right do i have to expect your trust again? Only by letting you leave is the best for you. I guess, i dont need to make you stay and wait anymore bahs. I just dont want to hurt you again. Hope she is a better choice for you. Stay happy like how i first see you smile. Take Care!!

Heaven"t been talking to buddy n ah girl recently. I know im in the wrong. Im at fault. I apologised. But is still not forgiven. Sigh.! So Stress!! Used to enjoyed myself when going to work. But, ino longer feel the same anymore. No more. Never gonna be the same anymore.....

I guess, this is the things i got to repay back after everything and the lies bahs........

2009-10-11T01:00:00.000-07:00

Finally meet up with kor kor n sharon on the 9th of oct. Buddy n ah gal also can get to see them too. haa. Meeting up with them for a steamboat. After that, walk all the way to town with buddy, ah gal n dear to take night rider back home. Its dame far. Sigh. Had a big fight with dear in town. After like 2hrs we took a cab back home. Quarrel still on. Quarrel n quarrel all the way till 6am cai really fall asleep. *Stupid*!! Due to quarreling and stuffs, i cancelled all the plan on sat. But, end up still went in to jb uh. hahaha!! Everything was fine after that. We all enjoyed oueselves in jb la. Went to sing k too!! haha. Still prefer singapore de k box instead of malaysia de red box. hees. Anyway hor, the blue black on my hand is all ur fault all ur fault!!!!! humph!!! Gonna bite you till you have that blue black too!!! hahaha!!

PS: You better rmb what you have promised me in jb last night.!! Promised to get the tee AND the hk drama vcd the nxt time we go in again!!! If you forget, i'll kill you!! hahaha!!

Last but not least, we reach home at ard 2?? Dame freaking tired la. After bathing both of us str away sleep str str like one dead pig like that. haha!! Dead pig refers to *you*!! Not me=] After all, i still enjoy myself alot. Although i forget to get my shoes again. haiya!! tsk!!

*Thanks for buddy n ah gal's concern*!!! We are fine already!! But pls stop distrubing me.....*Angry* haha!!

*I'm sorry and thank you, dear!!=]* You know what i mean!!

2009-10-04T00:44:00.000-07:00

Baby, i dont know if what you said now is true. But i will trust you. Trust that you want to keep me away from tears, hurt and unhappiness. Sigh. I know the reason why we cant be together. You got to be responsible for people out there. Are we able to walk as far as we can? I dont know. Dont dare to think anymore. Just want to spent my time wisely with you. Walk thru everything with you till the day the both of us is tired. There is alot of things that is happening right now that i really want to stop it but i fail to do so.

I know things that i have done hurt you alot. But, pls trust me. At that point of time, you are not a spare tyre at all. All the stuffs that i'm doing be it cooking for you or whatever is because i want you to be happy. I dont want to see you tears. Now that we cant be together but my promises still stands. I'll still be there for you. To stop you from doing things that is gonna hurt yourself. If anything were to happened to you, i promise, i'll bear all the responsible. If you need someone to be there, i'll still be around. I'm always just a phone call away. i know you cant trust my words anymore. But pls at least take good care of yourself. Treasure yourself...

2009-09-27T08:49:00.000-07:00

CONFUSED!!!

I dont know what to do.

I feel nothing at all already!!

Sad!!

Moody!!

2009-09-24T09:20:00.000-07:00

Everything was still alight yesterday. But, things started to change to become so worst today. sigh. I'm sorry my dear. I admit that i dont know how to handle stuffs well. I really dont wish to hear you crying over the phone. It hurt me alot. I know the only way to stop all this is me to listen to ping bahs. Take care of yourself pls.

I dont know why, but i really need time to let me have the trust back on you again bahs. Well, seriously dont know how long i need. But, sigh!! Dont know la. Dont want to think abt anything now. Just keeping quite and take all the blame...

2009-09-23T11:13:00.000-07:00

Finally updating my blog after like dont know how many months. sigh. hmm, thru this few months i should say lots of things happened. Till i dont know how to react. Dont know what to do. sigh. I dont want to hurt either one of you. You suddenly tell me so much things today. I was shocked by you. Dont know what to reply. Dont know if what you r saying is true or issit just saying for the sake of saying it out. Prove it to me if you really mean it. Put in effort....Chase my fear away. Bring my trust back.

Hate to hear you crying on the phone. Cuz that hurt me. Ur laughter is so funny that i want to hear it everyday. Pls cheer yourself up. I guess, everything is gonna be alright. You said you want me to be happy so the only way to make me happy is you to be happy=]

Time to go to bed le. Go orhs orhs!! Tired tired!! Good night!!

I MISS YOU!!

2009-08-10T09:51:00.000-07:00

Sick le sick le. Bad coughing, sore throat cum fever!! Sigh!! Two days mc. Hopefully they have got enough ppl to work man...=[

2009-08-06T08:30:00.001-07:00

Back to posting again!! haha!!

Wahh, i finally met up with kor kor n sharon last night. haha! I really enjoyed myself man. Tot many ppl would be ard but end up.....We went all the way down to bishan for supper first!! PS: At that point of time, i dame hungry la. fainting soon. haha.... After supper, we heading to our next chill out place.....guess what?? We went prawning. Hmm, we spent 3hrs sitting down but only manage to catch 6 prawn la. WTH!!! bUT thru out the 3hrs, me n sharon went for the fish spa nearby. After paying, i was rather regret!! Feeling that im paying money to??? I also dont know what to say. But okays la. After all, i still manage to put both legs down. haha. After prawing, we sent sharon home, followed by sending kor kor to queensway. Zai go all the way back home n slp=].

This morning, i supposed to meet doris gugu at her hse for swimming at ard 10am!! But, expected!! I overslept!! haha!! *too tired*!! So, "jiu xin" suddenly called!! Saying no work n want to come n pick me up!! haha!! *thank you*!! Bc of "you" i managed to reach at ard 11 n start my swimming session with my two little cousin. haha. Was fun la. But din get to tan much! =[ After bathing, gugu n me started our SHOPPING SESSION!! bUt, wait...hungry le. Go jack's place to have our lunch first. haha!! Went out the whole freaking day today!! Spent n spent!! But, nevermind!! I just enjoyed shopping!! Nevertheless, i went to cut my hair today!! *finally*!! Tml morning got to wake up early n go reborn!! Zai rush to work=].....

aLright!! Got to go to bed=] GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE=]

2009-08-06T08:27:00.001-07:00

Back to posting again!! haha!!

Wahh, i finally met up with kor kor n sharon last night. haha! I really enjoyed myself man. Tot many ppl would be ard but end up.....We went all the way down to bishan for supper first!! PS: At that point of time, i dame hungry la. fainting soon. haha.... After supper, we heading to our next chill out place.....guess what?? We went prawning. Hmm, we spent 3hrs sitting down but only manage to catch 6 prawn la. WTH!!! bUT thru out the 3hrs, me n sharon went for the fish spa nearby. After paying, i was rather regret!! Feeling that im paying money to??? I also dont know what to say. But okays la. After all, i still manage to put both legs down. haha. After prawing, we sent sharon home, followed by sending kor kor to queensway. Zai go all the way back home n slp=].

This morning, i supposed to meet doris gugu at ur hse for swimming at ard 10am!! But, expected!! I overslept!! haha!! *too tired*!! So, "jiu xin" suddenly called!! Saying no work n want to come n pick me up!! haha!! *thank you*!! Bc of "you" i managed to reach at ard 11 n start my swimming session with my two little cousin. haha. Was fun la. But din get to tan much! =[ After bathing, gugu n me started our SHOPPING SESSION!! bUt, wait...hungry le. Go jack's place to have our lunch first. haha!! Went out the whole freaking day today!! Spent n spent!! But, nevermind!! I just enjoyed shopping!! Nevertheless, i went to cut my hair today!! *finally*!! Tml morning got to wake up early n go reborn!! Zai rush to work=].....

aLright!! Got to go to bed=] GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE=]

2009-08-02T11:50:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, ppl just wont realize that their words can hurt someone's heart n change someone's decision. sigh. Dame piss by what you have said. Dont know if you really mean it. But i feel hurt la. kuku. Anyway, thanks to buddy n li hua for coming back to tiong n look for me after i end work. Got a short chat jiu went home le. haha. The "real" chilling session is on the coming wed nite with kor kor n other frens man. Whee.....

TO BE CONTINUED.......hahaha!!!

2009-07-31T09:47:00.000-07:00

OO... Back to posting after like two weeks. haha. Sorry Sorry. Really too busy working uh.

Friends

Have not been meeting frens for the past few weeks. Skip my sentosa trip for two weeks le. wtf!! Getting whiter n whiter uh. sigh! Dame piss. Hmm, few days back went out talking cock with li hua n buddy after work well, good enough i get to know a new fren la. haa. Nice to know you!! JIA WEI! Was stuck at tiong till ard 3plus zai cab back home. Wahh, nxt day got to wake up at 10 again uh. Lucky i still can force myself. =] Sister, tan xijie de 18th birthday coming. hmm, plan sth already lohhs. Hopefully everything turns out dame well man. Just dont like to see the disappointed face on her={. Emilia came down to tiong today. Wahhs, she give me a shock la. haha. That day, *cant rmb the date* after sentosa, samuel n me went down to town to look for jo. haha. Also dame long never see her la. laughs!! The only gathering thatall of us can get together is only on the 18th uh. Pls hor, Everyone pls try to make it man!!!

FAMILYS

One night after one whole day of work, the moment i reach home, i wanted very much a hot bowl of soup cooked by my mom, so, i asked, "Mummy, got soup to drink?? She replyed, Dont have la dont have la, think what?? i owe you uh??" sigh!! I know you sick la, but asking only what!! i dont think that kills you lohhs!! I was really wondering when is the last time i really ate the stuffs you cook?? I miss them!! sighh!! Gu gu came back from shanghai le. No off this week. So cant meet her out. But nxt week!! Nxt week meeting her. Whee.miss her like hell. haa. Go her house for swimming first zai go shopping n dinner together. haha!!

WORK

Have been busy working recently. No off!! No time!! Only work home, work home!! Dame tired uh. Sometimes, still hui work dao dame pc!! If not jiu shi injures here n there. sigh. But is okays la. Earn more money den can go holidays. hee. Have already start learning kitchen stuffs. Good good!! I just enjoy cooking man!! hee.

RElATIONSHIP

YOU came back to spore le. But leaving soon. Well, due to work, dont really have the time for you. Sorry!!

Another thing, im sorry to another YOU!! I know you feel hurt by stuffs that i have done. But, im tired already. I cant n wont be with you. My heart has already got someone else. Sorry!! Take good care of her bahs. I guess she need you very much right now=]

I feel that our distance is getting further n further. But well, it doesn't matter anymore. Everything just ended. You cried? For what fuck?? I know what you are thinking. Dont ever try to come n lie to me again.

Lastly, I guess i need a break already. sleeping now. tomorrow FULL SHIFT again!! Good night!!

2009-07-16T09:31:00.000-07:00

Wahh, today dame suay uh. Shit sia. Met one attitude china customer!! Dame shit la. Throw money on me. kns!! If i not working over there i sure throw back on her face one lohhs. Haiyo!! Everyday work work work! Sigh!! Tired!! Friday is my off day!! Whee!! But this week de off da not as fun as compared to last week uh. Last week still got so many ppl going to sentosa. After sentosa still got mahjong session at jase place till 3plus. haha. Well, this week only going with samuel. Nvm!! Better den staying at home doing nothing. Hopefully no raining on fri pls!! I need to tan!!! hahaha!! But say hao le. If raining jiu go town to shop shop!! hee!!

2009-07-07T11:45:00.000-07:00

Went k box with frens just now. Wahh, after drinking all jiu dame high uh.

haha.

Esp HUI LING!! dAMe fun uh.

Next time must go out more often. Whee!!

2009-07-03T08:54:00.000-07:00

Happy working one month in niwa sushi!!

Haha!! haiyo!! thanks to hui ling n li hua for that

"birthday cake" uh.

Sorry lohhs. Was just joking saying today is my birthday.

Who knows you girls really went to buy a small cake for

me??

haha. It's kind of funny la.

But is okays la.

Make it my next yr's birthday cake=]

Thank you!!

2009-07-01T08:45:00.000-07:00

Wahh. finally went down to sentosa today le. Dame happy uh. haha. Can also meet up with ruiting n the others. But, one thing that disappoint me!!! First thing i woke up in the morning i realize that is like, gosh!! raining heavily lohhs. kuku!! Wanted to sun tan sia. sigh!! But lucky after part in the afternoon the sun came out la. Well, it's not that strong to make me turn dark one day. haha. Must continue to tan cai ke yi. After sentosa jiu went down to town n meet up with another grp of fren for dinner. After dinner, wanted to go for pool but dont know y hor, all of us is like stuck at arcade la. haa!! Well, its still rather fun that day. Whee!! hope the next outing with family will have more ppl turning up uh. hahaha~~

2009-06-30T10:01:00.000-07:00

I'm so the freaking tired la. shit. Y must you always mention about her? sigh. Then got to start quarreling again. Y must you change to become like that? You are not like that in the past at all. Everything just simply ended by a pushed by you. It hurts to see you like this but im nobody to ask you to change anymore. Y cant you just trust that people is still showing concern n care to you?? Tsk! sigh. nevermind. Its your life. You can decide on what you want.

PS: Onces a gangster doesn't mean that person will be a gangster forever!!!!

2009-06-19T08:46:00.000-07:00

Everything seems to be so confusing at first. But now, the answer that i wanted is getting more n more obvious. Used to have some naughty tots. But its just for fun. I'M rather serious right now. Throw away the past n start afresh? Dont keep denying on stuffs? Say you she bu de? But your action doesn't seems it the way. Laughing n playing around when we meet up its only for fun. Feel is no longer the same. Your everything starts to affect me so badly already. Good news or bad news??

2009-06-15T02:39:00.000-07:00

"If You're Asking If I Need You

The Answer Is Forever,

If You're Asking If I'll Leave You

The Answer Is Never,

If You're Asking What I Value

The Answer Is You,

If You're Asking If I Love You

The Answer Is I Do"

2009-06-07T09:37:00.000-07:00

I'm back for posting again. Too busy working recently. *yawns*!! Tired. sigh. hmm, nothing much to update actually. Just the same old things happened again n again.

Went st james last night. But din go in at all lohhs. stupid q dame long. sigh. Wasted trip! But, still get to give hong a hug before he go ns la. hmm, dame high last night uh. haiyo. *Take care, hong. meet up soon.*

Well, Already planned where i want to go n who i'm meeting for the next few weeks or next few days but i guess my plan will have some changes bahs.

I just felt myself so EXTRA out of a sudden. Don't know why will i have this kind of thinking but just let it be bahs. I guess no one will realize that i'm not around or rather, who cares!!??

*You are finally back to spore!! I MISS YOU!!* =x haha.

Perhaps, what you have said is true bahs. Don't ask me if there is something holding me back or am i avoiding something. Because, me myself also don't know the answer. *Sorry.*

2009-06-01T04:11:00.000-07:00

Please stop pushing me here n there. I'm not a toy to all of you. I guess i still have the right to

choose who i want to be with.

Now, you sounds till like i'm the 3rd parties that come between the both of you. I know you

don't mean it that way but your words make me think that i'm one.

Things that are happening has got nothing to do with me anymore.

I'm out of the whole story le.

Wo zhen de hen lei le. Now, things that matter the most to me

is.....

YOU TO BE HAPPY WITH HER.

2009-05-30T00:04:00.000-07:00

Have been rather long since the last time i update my blog uh. Don't really got the mood to do so up till today. Learn something! Don't easily put in all your love into a relationship.

TRUST NO ONE!!

Have just hurt myself recently. But, wound is getting better n better. By doing that is not to make you feel guilty. Doing it to vent my anger out. And, instead of hurting you, i rather hurt myself. Cuz, i can no longer feel the pain anymore. I found out more n more things has time passed by. But didn't lose my temper or perhaps as what you say, i'm controlling myself bah. Well, whatever it is, everything doesn't matter anymore. So what if i find out more stuffs? I can't do anything either. It's really over right now. I won't ask for any more explanation to whatever you have done in the past.

*Specially for "you"*

I know you are doing your best to make me laugh every single moment.

Trying to give the best to me. *thank you*.

Thanks for been there for me at this point of time.

Keep losing temper on you but yet you can still wait for me till late night.

Till i'm safe back home.

Xin ku ni le.

I know i can't promise anything much to you now

but since i already promised that i will consider about us, then i will do so.

I don't know how long i will take but hopefully,

i don't missed the right person again.

I'll let you know once my heart tell me so.

2009-05-24T08:26:00.000-07:00

NO LONGER WAITING FOR THE ANSWER I WANT TO KNOW.

NO LONGER HOLDING ON TO WHATEVER!

LOVE THE

LIFE I'M HAVING NOW. LOVE THE WAY WE ARE NOW.

FRIENDS FRIENDS FRIENDS!!

KNEW SOMETHING IS HAPPENING

BUT JUST DON'T FEEL LIKE CARING ANYMORE.

HEES!! LET THINGS GO THE WAY IT

SHOULD BE. *SMILES*

2009-05-23T07:56:00.000-07:00

To all my dear friends who are worried n concern for me....

I'm alright already! No more emo-ing. I'm living a very happy life now. don't have to worried for me. And, all this while, Thank you to friends who always text me, call me, or ask me out uh. haha. *Thank you very much*!! love you all many many!!!

Went in jb with friend today. Has been rather long ever since i went jb the last time. Well, it's rather fun la. Went to their arcade. Omg!! It's really cheap la. But like very dirty like that. opps!! haha!! After jb trip, went home for a bath zai come out again. Just hate staying at home la. Don't know y. hees! So, reach home at ard 1.30am ba. It's time for sleeping.

2009-05-21T23:10:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DADDY!!

Will be staying home till night zai go out. *smiles*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XIANG TING!!

SORRY! Not able to make it on time last night to surprise you=x

I finally "xiang tong" le. Won't be holding/waiting anymore. To kept the best memories of the both of us deep down my heart is the only thing i want to do now. Forget about our promises. *Although, you once said that the promises you made to me is not meant to be broken*. Forget about our dream of going holiday together next year. Forget about everything.

"Some of the best memories"

We went to shop for some dinner ingredients and went back home to cook dinner together. haha.
It's fun"!

When i used to work in simei, you will never fail to surprise me with my fav donut. hees. "xing fu"

Rmb there is one time when i told you that i'm not feeling well, you came all the way down from amk just to pass me the medicine and "liang teh". "Although, it's not home cook liang teh but still very touched can"!!

There is one night when you were having some chill-ing session with you friends, I called. Crying in the phone saying i had a quarrel with my mom. Never did i expect, you will rush down str away to keep me accompany till the next day morning zai take first bus back home. "Thank you"

One very random night, we went down to geylang to have "tain ji" porridge. You ate.! I din even touch! omg! "scary"! After eating, I said that I don't feel like going back home tonight. So, you just suggested that we go down to mustafa! Well, nevertheless we went there!! Wahh, can't imagine that we actually shop till next day morning ard 5 plus. Bought some stuffs. haha. It's dame fun n funny during the whole shopping trip!
"Although you need to go to school at 10am the next day but you can just keep me accompany just bc I said that I don't feel like going home. lei huan ni le"

Well, all the above is only some of the stuffs we have been doing n i guess we both

really enjoyed!! It's funny n loving! But, it's time to keep all this n the rest of the

memories inside my heart=]

2009-05-18T07:32:00.000-07:00

What word should i use to "represent" the feeling i am having now?

"Sad, Happy, Angry, Lonely, Excited or Unhappy"?? Sigh. I also don't know.! Seriously don't know. But is definitely not "HAPPY or EXCITED"!

Why don't you hold me back?? Why can't you just open your mouth and ask me to stay on?! Perhaps, you no longer want to drag it on ba. Or, it's too tiring for you. hmmm.

In the past, I used to think that 2mins is nothing at all. But, after last night, I realized the importance of 2mins. 2mins allow me to hug the person i love. 2mins allow me to say thousand times of "I LOVE YOU". With that last 2mins given by you, I get to SEE, FEEL and SAY everything I wanted to. Sigh!!

I hereby, apologies for all my sucking attitude. And i guess, it's due to that and my childishness to cause everything to put it to an end. While we were on the bus last night, memories just keep on flashing thru my mind. And tears can never be control.

" Wo hai shi hui zai. Hai shi hui xiang yao wei ni fu chu. Hai shi hui dan xin ni. Hai shi hui hen xiang ni. Wo ba shou fang kai bu shi yin wei wo bu ai ni le, shi yin wei wo yao ni zhen de kai kou ba wo liu xia lai. ke shi, ni mei you. Wo......zhen de hen si wang.

2009-05-16T08:38:00.000-07:00

Sat!! Whee! Plan hao want to go for swimming n badminton today de. But, nice one lohhs. Before i reach baby house jiu start to rain. Wth! dame pc. End up stay at baby house watch tv till 1 and finally the sun "came out". So, we went swimming. But, i din really swimming uh. *lazy*. hees. Lucky i got to tan dao my body a bit lohhs. haha.

After swimming went to yishun meet baby fren. Pass her stuffs. AFter that jiu go back to buy2 hand!! hees!! So really happy to see the again uh. haha. But only get to Chat awhile. Scared baby too bored. Okays! Done with my visiting le. Time to go for lunch with baby!! ps: its already 3 plus n yet we ate nothing lohhs. hungry le!! haha.

After eating, went back baby house jiu all the way watch tv till 7 plus. Den wE went fair price to shop for some ingredients. I cooking dinner for baby tonight lohhs. haha. *ta you kou fu le*!! *laughing*!! Were eating n watching tv at the same time. hees. Nice feeling! Tonight staying over le. Gonna sleep early. tired!

BABY: We don't have to always go for movies or always go to whatever restaurants whenever we are out. This kind of staying at home for tv shows n home cook stuffs is also a kind of enjoyment that i can and i am enjoying. As long as i'm doing things that have you by my side, it's already very xinfu. =]

2009-05-13T04:02:00.000-07:00

Yeah. here to update my blog again.

Gosh! I have been feeling so restless recently. sigh! Things always start to happened time n again after a few days. wad the fuck!? Why uh Why uh?? Our R/S doesn't seems to affect you at all. But, it does affect me a lot.! I should say i put in too much bahs. Should have take things easy instead. sigh! All this while, I have been giving you pressure. *Din realized it, till you told me*. Wad a fuck up gf you have!! Both of us came up with a good choice to stop all the presurized n quarreling today. Things are really no longer beyond my control. Do whatever you want and that's it. Feelings towards you is getting more n more confusing or rather should i say, IT'S TIME TO STOP FALLING i guess.

2009-05-10T11:29:00.000-07:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!

MUMMY, I LOVE YOU MANY MANY!!

ALTHOUGH I ALWAYS MAKE YOU ANGRY LA. HEES!

BUT HOPE YOU ENJOY MY BIRD NEST=]

2009-05-05T07:48:00.000-07:00

Today work full shift! shi boring de lohhs. omg! Really cant stand the freaking weather! dame hot!! Sitting down whole day doing nothing. So, cant really stop myself from thinking other stuffs.

Firstly, I guess 'you' should stop showing so much concern to me. This shouldn't be the way at all. The concern i need most is no longer from you. I admit shi wo bu hui cherish you in the past. I'm sorry! Hope you are having a better life now.

Was talking to leemin on the phone last nite. She says that i'm making my life very complicated.! And later on she added, saying " lucky i'm not so into you anymore" wth!! Ps: I guess everyone wants a peaceful life bahs. well, same goes to me. I only wanted a peaceful life with "you". But it seems rather difficult.

Pls gain back my trust on you!! Every actions n Words!! I really need you to do so! Unless you come up to me n say " your trust is no longer important to me anymore"! Then i will have nothing to say.

2009-05-04T07:32:00.000-07:00

yeah! Time to update again! *no more caps* haha!

Right! today is my off day but is like kana put "fei ji" lohhs. shit! dame piss off!

Went all the way down to get stuffs to cook for baby n family. wanted to give surprise but end up nonsense came out. wtf?! dame pc can. sigh. but end up baby jiu come over n stay instead la. haiya! wadever it is la. Cant b bother to go n fan such stuffs anymore. Tomorrow working full shift! Sure sian dao siao! got to find something to do tomorrow le.=x

* Missing you so much out of a sudden*. But SO WHAT!!!?? I doubt you will know!

2009-04-28T02:32:00.000-07:00

WENT FOR HAIR CUT YESTERDAY. WAHH, STUPID! CUT DAO DAME SHORT. SIGH!

THIS FEW DAYS KEEP FEELING SO PC! WAD'S WRONG WITH ME AGAIN UH? HAIIYOO!! FUCK IT LA. WADEVER!! EVERYTHING IS BEEN KEPT INSIDE RATHER DEN SAY IT OUT NOW. *NO POINT*. KOR KOR ASKED, "WAD THE HELL AM I THINKING"?? MY ANSWER REPLY, " I DON'T KNOW".!

TAN XIJIE GETTING MARRIED. HAHA. FEEL HAPPY FOR HER LOHHS. BUT THE TEMPER MUST CHANGE ABIT LA. OPPS! HAHA. N HOR!!!!! SI LI MIN!!!!! WHEN YOU WAN TO MEET ME DE?? SHIT YOU!! ALWAYS NOT FREE FOR US BUT FREE FOR UR OUTSIDE FRIENDS!! BETTER MEET ME SOON! HAHA!

2009-04-25T18:12:00.000-07:00

TODAY TAKE MC DIN GO TO WORK. HEES! TOO TIRED LE LOHHS. *YAWNS*! I WANT TO CHANGE JOB! WORK IN SENTOSA! DEN CAN TAN N WORK AT THE SAME TIME. HAHA! GOOD!

I WANT TO GO SENTOSA NEXT WEEKEND!! PPL WHO WANT TO GO WITH ME PLS TEXT ME UH!! HAHAHA!! TAG ME OSO CAN. WILL B MORE DEN WILLING TO GO WITH YOU. HEHE!!

*DON'T MISS OUT " HONG XIN DA JIANG" TONIGHT TOO!! HAHAH!!

2009-04-24T18:49:00.000-07:00

~Recipe for Forever~

Gather all of the ingredients together,
So that they are close at hand!
Get a clean cloth and wipe the bowl clean
of any lingering *dust* from the past.

Take MATURITY, RESPECT, and FRIENDSHIP, and
stir gently. Add unlimited amounts of
COMPASSION and KINDNESS, And mix well.
To this, add CARING by the handfuls, and fold
in TRUST.

Continue stirring gently, adding LISTENING,
HONESTY, and large amounts of COMMUNICATION.
Slip in some DREAMS, GOALS, And firm pieces of
KEEPING PROMISES.

Bake in a home filled with PEACE, BEAUTY, and
SERENITY. Before you taste the finished product,
sprinkle liberally with PATIENCE, LOVE, and a
touch of SPICE. Serve very hot, with IMAGINATION
on the side."

2009-04-23T08:13:00.000-07:00

WAHH, FINALLY CAN UPDATE MY BLOG! RECENTLY TOO BUSY WORKING LE. *TIRED*!! 12 HRS EVERYDAY! *CRAZY BOSS*!! OPPS! HAHA.

WELL, RECENTLY THINGS SEEMS TO BE GOOD N WELL. HAHA! THAT'S WAD I'M ALWAYS HOPING FOR. HEES! GREAT!

FINALLY GOT MY FIRST OFF DAY LE. ASK ME OUT ASK ME OUT!! HAHA! (AFTER 7PM)! BEFORE 7PM WILL BE WITH BABY FIRST!! *STEAMBOAT N ARCADE*!! WHEE!! TONIGHT GONNA TON ONE NIGHT AT MAC FIRST! *STUDYING* BUT NOT FOR ME PLS! HAHA!!

OH YA, THINK GOT TO CANCEL THE FRIENDS OUTING ON SAT LE. *SORRY, FRIENDS!* GOT TO WORK.=[ HMMMM. NVM! STILL GOT ALOT OF CHANCES! HEES!

2009-04-18T01:48:00.000-07:00

I MISS BABY!!

FINALLY WENT TO WORK TODAY LE. SIGH! SHI LEI DE LOHHS. WORK WITH ALL THE CHINA PPL. SHIT LOHHS. *DON'T LIKE*. LIKE KANA BULLY BY THEM LIKE THAT LOHHS. STUPID LA. IF IS MY XIJIE, THEY SURE KANA SCOLD DE LOHHS. *ANGRY*! HMM, CONSIDERING OF WHETHER TO CONTINUE TO WORK OR NOT LEHHS. HMM, HOW HOW.! IF NV WORK JIU ZHEN DE CANNOT ANYHOW SPENT MONEY LE. HAIYO. DON'T NO LA. *FAN*

2009-04-17T03:39:00.001-07:00

BORING BORING BORING! NOT GOING ANYWHERE TONIGHT LE BAHS!

*EVERYTHING IS BACK TO SQUARE ONE LAST NIGHT. THINGS ARE ALWAYS BEYOND OUR CONTROL. NO WHERE TO RUN ANYMORE. ALL THE STUFFS HAVE BEEN SAID OUT LAST NIGHT. YUAN LAI...... THERE ARE REALLY SO MANY THINGS THAT I'M BEEN KEPT IN THE DARK. TRUE ARE ALWAYS SO HURTFUL! SAY I DON'T MIND, SAY I'M NOT JEALOUS? BULL SHIT! SIGH!! HOPEFULLY, EVERYTHING CAN BE BETTER THEN IN THE PAST. BU XIANG ZAI GO N THINK TOO MUCH LE. LEI DAO YAO SI! LET NATURE TAKE IT COURSE BAHS!

2009-04-16T11:23:00.000-07:00

TODAY HAPPILY TALKING TO LIMIN ON THE PHONE DEN SUDDENLY THINK OF CALLING XIJIE SOU YI JIU CALL N CONFERENCE. HAHA. HMM, THEY BOTH SOUNDS HAPPY UH. * CUZ TALKING TO ME BAHS*! OPPS! *THICK SKIN*! TALK TO JO AFTER THAT, HMMM, SHE SOUNDS HAPPY TOO UH. HAIYO, Y PPL ARD ME ALL LYK SO HAPPY TODAY?

BABY CALLED ME THIS AFTERNOON! *SHOCKED*! CHAT AWHILE JIU PUT DOWN LE BAHS. CUZ JO FINALLY CALLED ME BACK WHEN I TRY FINDING HER LAST NITE. *SLOW*

*YEAH*! FINALLY CAN GO SING K LE. HAHA. GO K-ING WITH RUI TING AT NITES. HMM, ENJOYED MYSELF. *FUN FUN*! CAN SING OUT ALL MY FEELINGS AS WELL. AFTER SINGING, MEET UP WITH BABY FOR SUPPER. HMM, AFTER THAT JIU......HMMM....LYK THAT LOHHS. HAHA. *TIRED*! *YAWNS*! WANT TO HAVE A GOOD SLEEP TONIGHT.

*YOU, PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF TOO! STOP WORRYING FOR OTHERS LE. HAO HAO REST WELL N DON'T THINK SO MUCH ANYMORE*! *CHEERS*!

2009-04-15T08:35:00.000-07:00

SHIT LA! BREAK MY VODKA TODAY! SIGH! DAME SAD CAN!!

*BABY, WO ZHEN DE HEN AI NI. TODAY DE STUFFS THAT HAPPENED REALLY MAKE ME THINK THAT WE REALLY GOT TO COME AN END LE. WO HEN BU XIANG FANG QI UH. TEACH ME WAD TO DO BAHS. SO THAT WE R ABLE TO GO BACK TO WAD WE USED TO BE IN THE PAST. I DUN MIND NOT BEEN THE FIRST. ALLOW ME TO BE THERE FOR YOU CAN? STOP DOING THINGS THAT R MAKING ME GIVING UP ON YOU. PLEASE! THINGS THAT I CAN DO I HAVE ALREADY DONE, THINGS I CAN SAY I HAVE ALREADY SAID SO. WAD ELSE? WAD ELSE IS MISSING??* SIGH!!!

2009-04-12T22:30:00.000-07:00

AH JO ENJOYING HER RICE. *SEC BOWL I THINK* FAN TONG! OPPS! HAHA!

WENT TO HAVE STEAMBOAT WITH MY DEAREST XIJIE N JOELYN! *WHERE IS KWOK LI MIN*?? HUH HUH HUH!! MEI LIANG XIN!

LOVE HANGING OUT WITH THEM. CAN TALK CRAP, SING SONG. HAHA! STEAMBAOT VERY NICE! MUST TRY! HAHAHA!

2009-04-11T23:55:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! FINALLY 19 YEAR OLD. *HAPPY HAPPY*! THANKS TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO CELEBRATED MY B'DAE FOR ME. ALL THE SURPRISE, PRESENTS N CAKE THE CAKE!

*THANK YOU BABY!! FOR THE ST JAMES'S SURPRISE*

*PEI FEN*
*XIANG TING*
*RUI TING*
*VALENE*
*YIN HONG N PARTNER*
*XIAO BAI*
*PEI HWA*
*WEI RU*
*HUI PING*
*SORRY, CANT RMB THE REST PPL DE NAME LE*=X
BUT STILL WANNA THANK YOU TO ALL.
ENJOYED MYSELF THAT NIGHT!